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i've learned to accept it. God has a reason for everything and has a plan for everyone. The 4th wake i've been to in the past 3 months and i still cant get a handle on things. As soon as i walk in the door something happens so suddenly that you cant control it- you walk into the past. The entire time its like a giant flashback of every wake or funeral you've been to. All we can do now is think back to all the good memories. They are in a safe place, in heaven. At Ryer's funeral they said something that really stuck with me, "God destroys death an relieves all pain."
" God broke our hearts to let us know that he only takes the best "
RIP Vece- forever in our hearts <3
And to all my valley people- hang in there i love you so much- stay strong!
Lauren.Mike.Steph.Ash.Karen.Ayla.Teddy-> im always here for you no matter what <3
"Dont stop dancin"- Creed
At times life is wicked and I just can’t
see the light
A silver lining sometimes isn’t enough
To make some wrongs seem right
Whatever life brings
I’ve been through everything
And now I’m on my knees again
But I know I must go on
Although I hurt I must be strong
Because inside I know that many
feel this way
Children don’t stop dancing
Believe you can fly
Away…away
At times life’s unfair and you know
it’s plain to see
Hey God I know I’m just a dot in
this world
Have you forgot about me?
Whatever life brings
I’ve been through everything
And now I’m on my knees again
But I know I must go on
Although I hurt I must be strong
Because inside I know that many
feel this way
Am I hiding in the shadows?
Forget the pain and forget the sorrows
But I know I must go on
Although I hurt I must be strong
Because inside I know that many
feel this way
Children don’t stop dancing
Believe you can fly
Away…away
Am I hiding in the shadows?
Are we hiding in the shadows?
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[15 Feb 2005|07:04pm] |
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havent written in here in quite some time...last weekend was the retreat and it was amazing. i love team so much <3 this past weekend was *interesting* - we'll leave it at that! hah. I cant wait till friday! VERMONT! its gonna be so much fun <3 i like how im going on a skiing trip and i dont even ski but thats ok we can pretend! hooray for a pointless entry by me heh
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[01 Jan 2005|11:05am] |
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
i can deffinetly say that this past year wasn't nearly as great as the year before... but it deffinetly had its moments! like my sweet 16, the shore, the cruise... n a lot more! I guess its because in this past year alone it seams like everything has changed and nothing is even close to how it was at this time last year. but i guess change can be good right? it doesn't really matter... cuz today starts the new year- HELLO 2005!!! lol <3 this year will be so much better!
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[24 Dec 2004|11:56pm] |
Wow- this christmas eve was so much fun! I LOVE MY FAMILY!!! eVeryone- HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!
pictures!
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[22 Dec 2004|05:50pm] |
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well a lot has been going on lately... but one thing in particular has really made me think... why do we act as though the world has come to an end when one little thing has gone wrong? Quite honestly if it only takes one little thing to ruine your life maybe you need to look around. Things dont always go the way you expect them to go... things happen... unexpected things... things that you wouldn't see coming in a million years... things that change our lives forever.Trust me, things could be so much worse so take the time to hear the people around you and maybe your problems wont seam so bad after all. So right now just do me a favor... be grateful for all the things you have and just be happy- dont get so caught up that you forget the things that really matter.
"Laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can't change. Kiss slowly, play hard, forgive quickly, take chances, give everything and have no regrets. Life's too short to be anything but happy."
c.c- im so sorry babe im here for you <3
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[29 Nov 2004|03:00pm] |
* confused *
... i could use a hug <3
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[26 Nov 2004|11:17pm] |
well well well...
things have been great lately- i really didn't believe it was possible but i met people that have convinced me... they're amazing! when we're all together theres no drama, no being mad at eachother n stupid bullshit like that, no saying shit behind peoples backs ... just having fun n i can honestly say that i trust all of them! im so thankful i met these people on the retreat and im glad our team got so close <3
speaking of being thankful... yesterday was thanksgiving n as well as 'the hottest team ever ' im also thankful for my family n other friends that have been there for me <3 i truly dont know why i should be so lucky!
and as for this weekend- thanksgiving was great... went to the city to watch the parade from my cousin's store window n then family came over for dinner- today went for a family picture then shopping with deb n then work- tomorrow hangin with chris {{maybe}}, n work, then hangin with brian- n sunday work... woohooo work! yaya! GO ICESKATING!!! PLEASEEEEEE!!! GOOOOOO!!!
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[15 Nov 2004|09:46am] |
this weekend was so awsome!!! i've never ever in my life met such amazing people! Lisa Christina Erica Nikki Lizzie Kimmy Mikey Tricia Bryant Stephie and Dennis- I love you guys so much there are no words to even describe it.
Lisa- my best friend i love you so much- theres nothing that will ever come between us!
Christina- im so glad we're friends again this weekend really brought us closer you're so great!
Erica- we havent talk for quite a while before this retreat... but this weekend i really got to know you better and your talk was amazing (( as you can tell from me balling the entire time!!! )) hehe ilu!
Nikki- Hugs make everything better! you're such an amazing truly caring person ilusm
Lizzie- i never met you before this retreat but by the end i felt like i have known you for such a long time! your so amazing! ilu
Kimmy- good luck with your sea section (or however you spell it)! AND WE ARE RELATED!!! hehe ilu
Mikey- this weekend was great... but i have to say we talked to most at applebees haha. "can we have someone else take our order"... NEVER GO TO APPLEBEES ON 23!!! lol
Tricia- you're such a funny and nice person and never lose that no matter what! im really glad i got to know you this weekend!
Bryant- haha singing in church! you're such a great guy and really caring about everyone! im so happy i met you!
Stephie- oh man... during ericas talk i just lost it and next thing you know im in your arms- you're so amazing, thank you so much! ilu babe
Dennis- This weekend was great and im glad we got to talking again you're a really great guy!
I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
...back to reality
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[03 Nov 2004|07:43am] |
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im in Florida whooot <3
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[15 Oct 2004|02:46pm] |
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im sick of his bullshit... and thats all i have to say :(
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[11 Sep 2004|09:40am] |
looking back on last year it just doesn't seem real. i feel like i was lied to by the people i felt closest with and i hate this so much. these empty promises seem to never change. one minute you have all your trust in someone n everything is perfect and the next you look around wondering who is really going to be there for you in the end. People are so fake and it never ends... you say you'll always be there for me but that must mean only when no ones watching. some people need to grow up cuz i cant take this bullshit anymore.
i guess i should be happy now ... finally knowing who my true friends are n whos there for me and what not but its like everything from last year was just an illusion n just a memory. a great memory but it just wasn't real. things always change right? but why did it have to change like this...
"'I still recall every summer night like it was yesterday.
The time could never end and my friends were family.
Nothing mattered more then the loyalty we had.
Now I'm a world away from everything we shared."
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[05 Sep 2004|11:57am] |
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I CANT BELIVE TONIGHT IS THE LAST NIGHT OF SUMMER!!!
so many good times this summer i cant even name them all.but ill sum it up in 4 words:
Shore.Cruise.Florida.Parties
I love my friends like woah- they made this summer AMAZING!
i drifted from afew people that i was really close with and i was really upset by it- but if it doesn't upset them enough to try and do anything about it then i guess i shouldnt be upset either!... then again i got close with people i use to be really close with and i know are always there for me <3 Me and lauren are cool now too which im really happy about!
...maybe then things would be different
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[01 Sep 2004|08:48am] |
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well im in florida right now and its been amazing! we've been goin to the beach...the pool... the mall... n yesterday went to busch gardens which was awsome. but the entire right home was lighting bults n stuff that scared me n gab haha and then we find out that a huricane is coming and is supposed to hit us on friday night... so we might be coming home tomorrow otherwise we would have to wait it out until like monday/teusday which i really dont want to do so hopefully ill be home tomorrow! i miss everyone at home <333
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[26 Aug 2004|01:05pm] |
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so this past week has been really fun. lisa's friend from long valley,kristin, came home from vacation with her. i went to the movies one night with lisa krisin chris brad larry n chelsea...chris lets me n riss drive now... kristin attempted that but thats not happening again haha... hung out at chris's the other night with people n then feff picked me marissa lisa n kristin n we drove around n went to wendy's and i must say that was probably one of the funniest things- you guys know what im talking about! haha. n one night drinkin at lisas which was so much fun! i love you girls. and the past couple nights parties. haha i love liz n nicole lol *good times*. and in afew minutes im leavin to get kevin and sar - im so excited i havent seen them like all summer...! woot n tonight partyyy. and tomorrow i have to pack and sleep at michael's house cuz we're leaving for florida at 5 am saturday morning. im so excited!
MDP4e rocks like woah!
Kristin i miss you already lol!
and i dont want summer to be over!!!!
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iv been told i should update cuz i havent in a looong time lol
this week has been really good. i hung out with a lot of people that i havent really hung out with in a while. i slept over alannas one night and it was so much fun haha i couldn't stop laughing! i went to the mall with liz n then that night hung out with her carlos sab n vinnie which was fun... got my hair highlighted and had dinner with my fam n the mcknights (its been years since we've all had dinner together without anyone missing)... n went to the movies with chris gina n tori. and MARSHALL is THEEEE BEST! hehe i love her. and i miss Lisa- shes been in the outer banks for like a week and a half n got home late last night.<3
Dear Vigster,
I miss you. things just got completely out of hand n things were said by both of us that we didnt mean. all our fights go from something small to something huge n it was so frustrating. i want everything to be fine with us because i miss you and i need you and im hoping you can forgive me n possibly feel the same way... i know you want to just forget everything that happened but its like every time we solve something n then fight about something else the thing we fought about first always comes back up. so if we're gonna forget about what happened we have to do it once and for all. and your not the only one that was hurt by all of this and this whole thing isnt completely my fault. it was both of ours. But if you dont want to fix things because you "dont need me" i understand.
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[07 Aug 2004|05:50pm] |
got back from the cruise this morning... it was so0o0o much fun! apparently there are usually more people our age and stuff but it was still a lot of fun:
- riss- ilu babe <3
- had the loudest table at dinner
- got drunk every night
- clubbing
- hangin with dave, will, jon, michelle, mike, ryan, mike, brian, n katie
- snorkleing
-kaiyaking... i cant spell
everything was so much fun and ill put up pics soon <3
i missed lisa so much n we're hangin tonight whooot!
i miss kerri n jinee like woah! i miss our sleepovers with all of us n riss n lisa- they were so much fun. i miss going to parties n getting so fucked up n then coming to my house n trying to talk to my rents and then falling all over the house until like 5am n then just being lazy n hangin the next day.
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[28 Jul 2004|10:50am] |
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well im glad you dont need me and i still dont understand why we cant still be friends... its like you only see black and white and no in between. whatever if you dont need me then i deffinetly dont need you.
my summers goin good despite all the d r a m a and everything... some situations are getting pretty bad and i hate that theres nothing i can do but watch and hope for the best.
me and marissa went to preakness yesterday even though she was grounded and i bought a skirt, 2 bathing suits, and a pair of shoes. we really dont understand why someone seams as though they dont need us all of a sudden... but whatever. i talked to kyle for a long time on the phone last night which was good cuz i havent talked to him since my sweet 16. i want a boyfriend and now i dont really wanna wait till summers over, im having a lot of fun n all but i think thats whats missing.
oh well- i cant wait to get away from all the drama and go on my cruise!!! ONLY 3 DAYS TILL WE LEAVE MARISS! so excited!!!
i have a showcase tonight and im singing jessica simpson- take my breathe away and im actually kinda nervous about this one...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA!!!
((wow i never write entries this long lol))
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wow so much is going on right now i just need to get away from it all! im so happy i leave on my cruise next saturday. last night i stayed home and it was just a really bad night... but Alyssa and Lisa cheered me up- thanks for always being there for me ilug <3
Lauren... i miss you.
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[24 Jul 2004|07:36pm] |
why is everything so fucked u right now... its such bullshit n i cant take it! whatever im goin out tonight to get my mind off things...
cheer me up :(
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